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Look How Much Tatyana’s Anahata Grew!

        Near the campfire, to which I returned to rest, Vladimir came to me observing.
        “Look: what anahata Tatyana has now!” — he said, addressing the others. — “When you came to us for the first time, it was as this:” — he drew with his hands a ball about twenty centimeters in diameter. — “And now it is so grandiose! The flower has blossomed from a bud! Your anahata — even in a relaxed state of the consciousness — no longer fits within your chest, it is much outside of the body! Now this is — not just the anahata, but the true spiritual heart!”
        All were happy for me:
        “That is — what means Juanito!”
        “Such a young and handsome Chief!” — Larisa added, and we laughed.
        … But then, again, I began to freeze, even near the campfire. The toes were disturbed most of all.
        Therefore, the following meditation, which Vladimir explained, was too hard for me. I had to shine above the opening spaces with the spiritual heart, as by a bright lamp or flashlight. And then — to fill these spaces, merge with their beauty.
        Noticing, apparently, that I was not very good at this exercise, Vladimir clarified that it requires from me to merge in no other way, than by the state of love.
        I tried. What I was looking at, was really infinitely beautiful, but the flashes of my love… were combined with the rigor of the body.
        “Yes,” — Vladimir said, — “if it is cold, no love is possible.”
        We returned to the campfire. And suddenly… Vladimir suggested to me… to stand barefoot in the snow!…
        He himself calmly took off his rubber boots, which were worn on bare feet — and… stood in the snow, offering me to do the same…
        Because I was always interested in trying everything new and unfamiliar, and also if it was useful, and even more if it was told by Vladimir — I repeated all after him…
        For the feet, of course, it was cold, but for some reason, at the same time it was ridiculous… This was the reaction of my body to a “positive stress”.
        “Enter into your anahata,” — Vladimir said. “Now — it is, in fact, not too cold, right?”
        “Hiding” with all the consciousness into anahata, I could really not even feel my feet. But then again they distracted me, and again I held down as long as possible in anahata.
        In the end, we stood barefoot in the snow for about ten or fifteen minutes. For Vladimir, it looked, like it was quite usual, he did not feel any discomfort from it. But I… — I do not even know what to say about this… — I took this… into my experience… I will have to train for this next winter…
        … After relaxing near the fire, I began to repeat and consolidate all the exercises given to me. The most difficult was to hold on my hands — the sea, fish, birds… I stretched out my hands of consciousness, as far as felt… From these exercises, I got tired more quickly, I even began to breathe deeply, as if I had just climbed up a steep slope…
        Vladimir helped me by showing yet another place where it was most convenient to perform such exercises. It was much more comfortable and warm, emotions of love appeared much easier. After taking deep breaks for a few seconds, I then started everything in a new fashion. And only when meditations lost their clarity and emotions diminished, I returned to the campfire.
        Vladimir smiled silently. He almost never laughed loudly, but just emanated a quiet joy — through his eyes, his smile, his face, his whole being. I only once heard his laugh, along with everybody. It was after the story about the pictures I had seen, where the Orthodox priest in a cassock, standing on the roadside, placed the advertisement: “Benediction of petroleum!”.
        … Soon it was time for us to leave the place of Juanito and to board a train. We walked along the beach sand. Water reflected the sun rays.
        Anna asked me, if I had noticed that the swan, which I kept on my palm and tried to fill with my love, suddenly began to swim towards me? I replied that I just did not see it because of my poor eyesight, I only tried to keep it on my palm as long as possible, trying to feel as a bird — and give it my love and warmth. Then Anna smiled and noted that, judging by how easily I learned to see, I had every chance of restoring full vision.
        … We left the train and walked calmly back home. My head was buzzing, muscles had pain, but the state of relief and joy, comfort and peace — overshadowed everything. We talked, laughed, but no idle word was said, nor any sentence, which would have no relation to God, living for Him. All was so natural, as if we were speaking about the most ordinary daily household affairs. But this was their daily life! And I was hoping the same life would be mine.
        … We again touched on the subject of restoration of vision. Anna told the story about one of their former students:
        “One nice girl came to us several times… She had eyesight which was much worse than yours — down to minus eight. But at the Eremey’s place of power she had the success of improving her eyesight to minus three.”
        “And where is she now?” — I pried.
        “She is not with us anymore, Vladimir had to remove her. She did not pass the test: she fell in love with a boy, her disciple. But that boy, from a certain point, could not intellectually master the next steps. And, despite numerous warnings that he was not able to move on, she stayed with him, actually preferring him — instead of God. And then she was very resentful to us, that we did not agree that she — as she said — could love that boy and God at the same time…”
        “And what happened next?” — I did not appease. It was totally incomprehensible for me: how could this happen? — To reach such heights, to cognize directly God’s Love — and suddenly be carried away by “earthly” relations!
        “He was much younger than her,” — Anna continued. — “They were together about two or three years — and parted. But during that time she lost all her positive experience in the spiritual development…”
        Such an outcome was not unbelievable for me; I was not surprised.
         “And can you tell me her name?”
        “Olga...”
        … At home we ate a very tasty supper. I especially praised highly the fried mushrooms that Anna kept in dried form, but now soaked and fried. They were scaly nedgehogs (Sarcodon imbricatus).
        After supper, I secluded from the others and remembered the story of Olga. Would it be possible that this would happen with me?
        Once upon a time, reading the New Testament, I imagined Jesus: how He could be, how He talked with people, how He was playing with children — and I suddenly thought that if I was near Him, I would definitely fall in love with Him! But — with that “earthly” love, because I did not know at that time about the existence of any other kind of love… But I immediately scolded myself for this thought: it is not allowed in the Orthodox — to love God in such a manner!…
        About Mary Magdalene, I knew in those years, only that Jesus had saved Her from stoning. But I read only in later years that She became the companion of Jesus…

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 I Became a Great Consciousness over the Sea!

        Morning. Gentle sun.
        I walked with the consciousness through all the chakras: down, up, then I looked to all directions from the anahata, “catching” doves with the palms of consciousness — to fondle them. I was watching people: while it was possible to hear laughter and cheerful voices from carefree youth, adults had mostly anxious or sleepy faces, Russian homelesses were coming their “work day” with their own positiveness. Calm in the city. Rare cars. The freshness of early morning.
        I noticed that the fatigue from meditation exercises — was the same as in the physical. And if I am not tired, while holding the river on my two hands — at first, from one side of my body, then from another, — it means that I have forgotten and involuntarily lost the concentration.
        I was now no longer afraid of Vladimir, but still remained tense in his presence: so as to not suddenly blurt out something that could produce a gentle hint on my intellectual insolvency.
        I had heard about many good followers who, despite their developed anahatas, strayed from the Path because of the fact that they just could not intellectually master the following steps. I was very afraid that this could happen with me, but knew that I could do nothing about this. All I could do — was to “accept my own fate” (in the words of Juan Matus) and try to do, with the maximum effectiveness, all the possible in this current incarnation…
        … Having left the train, we went through the forest. As a diligent disciple, I asked questions about every bird, which was singing its songs for us — to remember them by name as quickly as possible and in a number as broad as possible.
        Vladimir was carefully choosing a path in the forest, as the snow did not melt yet and it was difficult to walk.
        Finally, we found ourselves on the beach, on a green meadow, warmed by the morning sun. Yesterday Vladimir let us know beforehand that we would be going today on a visit to Divine Lorenz Bayron and Konrad Lorenz — and that this was Their common working site.
        I tried with all my strength to feel Them, searching for the differences in Their energy fields. But all that I could still feel — were small changes in my own well-being: inside of places of power, an ease of feelings appeared — as if I was unleashed and allowed to stretch my wings.
        “Konrad says that They are very pleased to see us here. And Juanito is now here too. Do you still remember Juanito?” — Vladimir joked.
        Do I remember Juanito?! I almost was indignant, but quickly realized that Vladimir was joking — and then laughed.
        “Of course I remember!”
        “Juanito is very pleased to see His favorite student!”
        For the “favorite” — I was quite blurred with pleasure!
        … Covered with ice and snow, the sea sparkled in the morning sun! From this point, it was perceived — as infinite space and infinite freedom!
        Vladimir began to explain the tasks for today. We had to train ourselves to flood back from anahata over the sea space — and feel ourselves as that beauty!
        “But first we need to drink,” — suddenly he said.
        “To drink what?” — I did not understand.
        “What was in store for us…” — he replied, and they all laughed.
        We “fueled” ourselves with cheese sandwiches, cookies, washed our food down with cranberry and raspberry tea.
        “While chewing, we also can meditate,” — Vladimir revealed quietly, slowly, pausing to allow time to properly interpret and apply the above into action. — “Let us hold out one hand in that direction, to the sea, and take the sea on the palm of love. And then let us extend the other arm to another side, under the land… We will give our love to fish, birds… — to all living beings!”
        I tried. Today this was easy. Today there was a bright cheerful sun, which not only warmed us, but also sparkled on the snow, as if blowing a lot of “sunbeams”! Though, perhaps, just only my attitude changed, but not the weather around.
        … Then we went on a sandbank.
        “Here another place of power begins,”— Vladimir made steps forward and back and showed with his hands, as if feeling a wall at the border.
        “Let’s feel the difference. Let’s feel how, by stepping over this line, the spiritual heart suddenly becomes huge!”
        The difference was really felt quite clearly. As if from a closed corridor you suddenly broke out into the fresh air — and the shining scope expanded around and became clearly visible. You were spilling by the consciousness into it! But if you took a step back — it was as if the space “curtailed” around the body, around oneself. And you immediately wanted to jump back!
        Then Vladimir proposed to turn our backs to the sea and flow out of anahatas. And then I really felt as if I flew up! I did not see what was there, but I felt joy, and the delight of such soaring was overflowing!
        It was not a real flight with the feelings inherent for the material body. But the thrill of flight of consciousness at this place of power was of a different level of perception. There was only a huge space filled with Divine Light and Love! And I tried to feel myself huge there — like that Light and Love, and not like a material body.
        Vladimir suggested me to ask myself: “Who am I? Where am I?”. This heightened the Mergence much more. The Light and Love — became me, and I — became It!
        Then Vladimir continued, addressing mostly me:
        “From the state of Mergence there — let us extend our hands to our bodies! Take the bodies on our palms! It is also possible to heal our own bodies in this way. Also — to heal anyone regardless of where that person is now and what he or she is doing.
        “And now,” — he said, smiling slyly and not in a serious tone, — “feel yourself sitting on those distant ice floes and looking at your body, which is on the shore… Our Teachers said to me that in this way it is possible to learn to move in space with the material body. What if you master this faster than us?”
        It was easy for me — to keep my body on the palms and warm it with love, but the second task had me so surprised that all my thoughts vanished. It was quite “too much”! There was a strong feeling that this was so far away for me.
        “Okay, okay! I was joking!” — Vladimir smiled. — “But don’t stand still: move not only with the soul, but with the body too!”
        Vladimir had already reminded me about this several times. Inspired by the new practices and the new sensations, I often completely forgot that the majority of meditations may be mastered better not with a stationary body, but if the body slowly walks.
        … Getting tired, I sat on a log, with Vladimir sitting on the other end of it — in his “sunshine” state. Here it was especially warm, and I happily turned my face to the sun and relaxed. But not for long.
        “Here is — Konrad Lorenz. We are — with our bodies — in Him. That is — His large Face: a few meters above us. You can fill it with yourself. Or you can embrace Him, coming from outside with the consciousness — into His Mahadouble. You can also say to Him that you love Him!”
        Then Vladimir added jokingly, referring to my relationship with Juanito:
        “To love two such Men — is not a sin!”
        I did not understand quickly, to what extent this was a joke. I did not see this as a problem: for I was learning to love God! And it is so remarkable that it is possible to develop the emotions of love in this way!
        Moreover, not so long ago, I even “got wise” enough to fall in love with two “earthly” men at the same time, staying with both, at the same time, “at a polite distance”. I cried to myself: “How is this possible?!” I understood only now that I loved in them, in each, only the best of their qualities. I even fantasized: to take from one of them his care and concern, and from the other — the tenderness and wise patience, and then combine both into one… — that would be great!
        But now — I could laugh about it.
        It was important for me at that moment — to understand and “to sort through” the coming new knowledge for me. For each of the concrete Representatives of the Holy Spirit are unique, though All They are equal in regards to subtleness of Consciousnesses and Their Coessentiality in the Abode of the Primordial Consciousness. And we must be able to recognize Each of Them.
        I tried very hard. I even put my head on the shoulder of Konrad Lorenz. I do not know if it was appropriate, but it was very cool!
        … After finishing writing down the exercises and relaxing in the sunshine, I went to fix what was already mastered.
        I again detected the boundaries of the place of power: could I still feel them? I convinced myself that I still could feel them well.
        And I could also now more successfully flow with the consciousness back from anahata.
        But the most joy, I now had, was feeling huge, filling the entire space above the sea — and keeping my own body, which seemed at present so insignificantly small — on my own hands.
        Speaking on the use of such skills in the world of matter, Vladimir pointed out the possibility to cleanse the housing of coarse energy, to diagnose and to heal patients at any distance, and to see their fate.
        All these perspectives were, of course, fascinating. And it became clear, how much work there was still to do. And I needed to work every day for achieving the results.
        … Soon all gathered again around the campfire.
        “It is better to rest at such halts being barefoot,” — Vladimir said and offered to drop the boots.
        Since this time there was no snow under our feet, only sand, and the weather was warmer, the rest without rubber boots was really one more delight.
        “And it makes sense to wear socks only in winter, them being of wool,” — he added. — “And for them not to wear out quickly, it is reasonable to wear above them — socks made out of synthetic fabric: because they are stronger. But such fabric — to be worn directly on the skin — is unfit.”
        Then he looked long at my rubber boots, thinking about something. And, finally, smiling, he said:
        “I have understood now, what symbolic figure exists in the design of your boots! Their coloration is similar to the color of a zebra. But the zebra, they say, is the fastest of all horses. So, this means, you should go on the spiritual Path, too, more quickly than all others!”
        We laughed.
        … All but Vladimir, being refreshed, went around. But he suggested to me to learn a new relaxing meditation while lying down.
        “Put your body on the ground. Thus, it is convenient.”
        Seeing that I laid down on my back, he said:
        “Posture lying on the back — it is better to avoid during sleep. The common cause of snoring is the habit of sleeping in this posture. There are two ways to unlearn this habit. The first — banning forever oneself to lie so. This — for strong people. But there is another way: one can sew a pocket to the back of a night-shirt or night-gown and put there a table tennis ball. But there are also those who are able to snore even lying on the side. They can be advised to learn to sleep on their bellies. I say this not in relation to you personally: I was not able to verify whether or not you snore. But it is good for you to know about this: for you, as a physician, to give appropriate advice to your patients.”
        After a pause, Vladimir said:
        “As for spiritual seekers, I can give, in my opinion, useful advice, not associated directly with the problem of snoring. The best posture, if we wake up at night or in the morning in bed, is this: a posture between on one side and on the back. In any case, for right-handers — it is preferable on the left side. As for left-handers — I don’t know, because I am not a lefty; it must be studied.
        “Why is this significant? The fact is that this posture is the most favorable of all the lying postures — for perceiving God.
        “And now,” — he continued, — “let us merge in love with the Holy Spirit. Let’s come out of our anahatas — and up… Then — the same — and down. And feel the Earth as our own huge bed, merge with its inner Light… And so — alternate several times. When meditating, don’t close the eyes!…”
        I tried to do everything as Vladimir instructed, but still felt that I was not very good at it. Emotions, distracted by physical discomfort, were already not as intense as I wanted: in bright sunlight I, all the time, wanted to close my eyes and — take a nap. And also I could not relax all the time and was worried: what if I am doing something wrong, and suddenly I am not fit for such work, and what if I do not try hard enough?
        Finally, I confessed to him that I was not very good at this exercise. He was surprised, but, on reflection, said that it was — from fatigue. I immediately felt better. So, the problem was not my inability.
        … After making sure that I had enough rest, Vladimir asked me to go a bit with him. We walked along the shore.
        “Here the place of power of Maenuel starts.”
        I was surprised and pleased. A few years ago I was able to buy the book Spiritual Heart: The Path to the Creator. Poems-Meditations and Revelations, edited by Vladimir. I loved to open it at random — and see, what God would say to me each day through what was contained in this book. And very often I came across the poetry and meditations of Maenuel.
        So I already could easily and happily follow Vladimir, assuming that I was apparently, to some extent, familiar with Maenuel.
        Staying among the pine trees near a small lake formed by melted snow, he asked me to turn my back to the water and… to sink with the consciousness down through the Earth’s firmament, into the Light Which was there.
        “It is very convenient at this place of power to ‘fall through’ to that Light. And it is possible then — from there — to purge one’s own body, coming up from below, through the middle meridian.”
        No matter how sudden and strange this task sounded, it turned out alright. I clearly felt that in the depths of the planet there was a bright space in which one could really fall as deeply as was desired.
        Others came to us and watched my “journey into the interior of the Earth”, commenting on what was happening with me. So it was — really true? So it was — not an illusion, and not something as “non-verbal suggestion”?
        … Vladimir went on, and we, stepping over bumps, came after him to the next coastal shallow. Vladimir again invited me to sink down by the consciousness and then, approaching nearer to the water, to turn the body: back to the sea.
        “And now, back from anahatas — tumble out…” — he smiled and looked at me, — “Maenuel hugs you… Do you feel it? He likes you!”
        We laughed.
        I now really began to feel the Touch of the Divine Teachers. These Touches could be very intensely blissful! They were — like of a special subtlety sounding joy that fills the whole consciousness, whole body — from head to toes! Because of this, I wanted to become even broader and larger in size — to accommodate this Divine Joy to an even greater extent!
        I felt that I was smiling “from ear to ear” and I did not want to disturb this state with any words. So I only smiled to Vladimir and nodded my head in answer to his questions. And what is here to convey in words? They would sound only corny.
        I wanted to ask him: would it be alright to love three such Men at the same time? But I did not ask, only laughed silently.
        … We went back to the path, and even after a few meters it turned out, that Adler’s place of power began. But about Him I did not remember anything, and Vladimir also said nothing, hoping to make my acquaintance with Him in the future.
        Vladimir found here good places to cleanse the meridians and to be able to flow down with the consciousness.
        … Near the campfire, he remembered (I do not remember in what connection), a bygone case in the forest. A man of an alcohol-type guarding the tents of tourists asked Vladimir to teach him how to make a fire. If not, he almost cried, the tourists would return soon, they had asked him to boil water for tea, but he cannot make the fire! Vladimir explained everything, gave the entire store of paper from his rucksack and went on his way. But, when he looked around, he saw how that man put and burnt all the paper which was put above the top of the firewood…
        There are people who are completely without the ability to learn…
        … We went back to the train by a new route. The path led us to a glade covered with small fur-trees and young pines. Vladimir felt here another place of power, which they did not know of before. He looked — and said calmly:
        “Here is — again Maenuel.”
        After walking on this site a few minutes, he offered us to come to work here tomorrow. All gladly accepted: they were always happy to learn new things.

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But Some People, Who Almost Reached the Top,
Fall Right Back Down…

         Larisa talked with me a lot too: she told me about her life experiences, which could be discussed as examples to help me. She gave me advice about contacts with people with whom I had not quite smooth relations. I felt with her like a small child, whose mother very carefully covered her with a blanket at night.
        Anna, also, in turn, came to me and suggested new meditations, when we were walking, for example, back to the train. She herself always tried to embrace and love all living beings, and wanted to help me in making this — my main motive in life too.
        She was always filled with a special joy: it was even expressed in her manner of speaking: sometimes the tone of her voice, in some emotionally significant places, so suddenly changed, as if it flew among a flock of happy birds, calling among them to each other. In those moments I wanted to fly up with her.
        But there was the couple, whose names I decided not to mention. They always kept separate from the others, but among only themselves; they always together came and together left. I also noticed that they both wore glasses, and with large lenses. I asked Anna about this. She did not answer immediately, but after a little pause said:
        “Maybe, contrary to you they did not wear glasses only as adults but have been wearing them since childhood and are therefore used to them…”
        It was not entirely clear. Maybe because I wore glasses only from the age of eighteen and knew what this meant — to see well without any aids? In any case, I really wanted to improve my eyesight. It was especially bad being without glasses in the forests: I wanted to see every leaf, every blade of grass, and all the colors in all their brightness!
        … Now I remember the story of one patient, when I was in practice in the room of a psychiatrist. I had the opportunity to just sit aside and to watch the patients and the way the doctor communicated with them. Once a patient came, who claimed that he could see the future: some accidents — in advance. Perhaps he saw it, but he also took medication regularly. Looking at me, he suddenly said:
        “You can bring yourself to not wear glasses, but you just don’t know about this yet!…”

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The Spiritual Warrior
Must Be Impeccable in Every Way!

        I took off my boots in the hallway at homes and stepped down on the bare floor. This was something that I normally used to do. Larisa drew attention to this:
        “Now you have to wash your feet, you cannot put on slippers with such feet!”
        I tried to argue that I stepped on the floor only few steps. Larisa went on a theme:
        “The Spiritual Warrior must be perfect throughout, even in small things! Vladimir — long ago — well explained to us that we walk by streets in places where, perhaps, spat tuberculars. And the street dust with dried and sprayed contagious sputum may well be carried and on the floor of our apartments. If one does not follow Vladimir’s advice, then it happens… he looks so that the desire to argue immediately disappears…”
        I did not need more explanation and tramped into the bathroom.
        After the supper, Anna asked me to read a book in which I could continue to meet with the stories of the Divine Teachers about Themselves: on Their latest Incarnations, and how They achieved Their own Mergence with God. It was already mentioned by me: Classics.
        They fell asleep already at six o'clock in the evening, but I for a long time studied the book or was thinking about current events, then — dipped into some of my own problems.
        Was it possible that around me, there is no person to whom such knowledge would be needed? And how hopeful I was about some people!… Because I had wonderful friends still with we — from school. Of course, we did not always agree in opinions and sometimes pursued different goals in life, but no matter what happened — we adopted each other such as we were, and tried to help each other in every possible way. And I was always grateful to God for such friends!
        I used to notice that they did not understand and did not share my outlooks. But this was because I spoke and explained inadequately, because I continued the life that could not be an example for others… And now even my mother, as I thought, who once would be able to come into my life and understand and accept, now could not. So it turns out… no one…?

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Here You Can Enter Directly into Jesus!

         Today we were going to the place of power of Maenuel!
         I was already doing everything freely without glasses, easily stretching out my hands from my already accustomed to very advanced states spiritual heart — to caress and embrace the tops of trees, birds… The morning sun flooded all the space with its gentle light — and again I put the same little sun into my anahata and lighted with it everything around.
         … The joy of meeting in a train, road, path in forest — and we were at Maenuel’s place of power.
         It was a very early, slightly foggy morning. The branches of young fir-trees were wet with dew.
         We washed our hands using the snow and then ate.
         … When everyone had gone to perform their individual tasks, Vladimir invited me along with him. Moving the face towards the sea, he began to explain:
         “This is — an interesting and very important place within the vast Mahadouble of Maenuel. It is intended for working with the ‘orbits’: microcosmic, macrocosmic, and the average. Let’s start with the mean, i.e. the orbit of the ‘cocoon’. Let’s feel the boundaries of our own ‘cocoons’ and start, along with walking a little, turning the energy of them. At this working site of Maenuel, this rotation takes place as if by itself, without our own efforts. Simply, Maenuel, here, helps His embodied students learn this very important exercise.”
         Vladimir showed how to do it, moving forward.
         “But when moving the body in the opposite direction — the direction of the rotation of energy, as if by itself, is reversed. What an interesting and unusual place of power!”
         I tried to feel my “cocoon”. But I hardly succeeded. In my preparations for the visit, I did not even touch upon work involving the “cocoon”. And all that was in my mind, was two bubbles around the body with luminous points, which were described by Carlos Castaneda. I did not consider this subject before because I assumed I would not be at this stage.
         I went a few times here and there, but no significant changes were felt since I could not even imagine what and where this “cocoon” should be.
         Larisa was coming towards me, repeating the same exercise. I asked her for help… In the end, nevertheless, I had to admit to Vladimir that I did not gain any success.
         Then he said: “Let’s leave the ‘cocoons’!” — and proceeded to explain the principles of rotation of the energies of the microcosmic orbit. He explained its trajectory inside the body — on the same path at the same place of power.
         Now I really felt the rotation which reminded me — at my present stage of development — something like the movement of a tractor’s track.
         After working with the orbit, I still decided to return back to the “cocoon”. For some reason, I saw it as round, like a ball. And moreover — transparent. I asked Vladimir about this. He replied that the completely purified “cocoon” is really seen as fully transparent.
         “About Carlos Castaneda,” — Vladimir said, — “it is an actual fact, that he could not even develop his spiritual heart. His psychogenetic age did not allow him to make such self-transformation easily. Therefore, very much of what was teached by his American Native friends, he did not understand and therefore described inadequately.”
         Interrupting his explanation, Vladimir suddenly and calmly said:
         “Jesus has just arrived. You can say ‘Hello!’ to Him!” — Vladimir smiled. — “Here, here He is!” — and Vladimir pointed to the space in front of us. — “You can go directly into Him, feel Him, hear what He says…”
         Vladimir saw my confusion.
         “Hearing God can be most successfully done when we are in the meditation: ‘There is only God, there is no I’. It is the only possibility to perceive God clearly. Only in this situation all His thoughts become understandable.”
         I took a step forward.
         The effect of intensity of arising sensations could not be compared with anything! It seemed, that there was nothing that was not filled with Jesus! Waves of His Bliss passed through my body! In seconds — my whole life flashed in front of me, and I felt that my control over my emotions was carried away like a dry twig of a tree carried by a strong gust of wind… And I cried…
         … It seemed to me that I knew Loving Jesus always. From my early childhood, I remembered the foreign TV series, created based on the New Testament theme, which was broadcast in the mornings on TV almost for a year, — and I always watched them with pleasure.
         … Or, when I was just five or six years old, I went with my grandmother by the hand and asked her to teach me how to pray. Although that was strange, for, being educated in atheism, my parents never told me about God. And my grandmother only went to church in the last years of her life. But I knew that I could just ask her about prayer. And it was not the plan prepared by me beforehand: it happened spontaneously.
         And my grandmother began: “Our Father, Who art in Heaven…” — and I repeated after her. And learned.
         … And once I lost a shoe of my favorite doll and was very distressed by that fact. I was afraid that I had lost it somewhere in the haystack, and therefore — it would be impossible to find. And then, I went up to the window, into which the sunlight struck, I stood on my knees and began to pronounce that prayer. I asked God to help me to find the missing shoe. Requested — very sincerely, though nobody ever taught me to do this. Then I stood up from my knees and was going to make my bed, lifted the end of the blanket from the floor… And, oh joy! There was the shoe!
         I grabbed it, pressed it to my chest and rushed to tell my grandmother about this miracle. Grandmother responded with restraint, and my parents — did not pay any attention. It did not upset me that no one shared my joy as much as I pleased; I then went about my deeds.
         … But there were also memories of my older years. One day, completely suppressed by the situation at the University, the mental overloads, and in addition to a heavy quarrel with my mother, — I was stepping down deeply “into myself”, hiding from the world like a tortoise into its shell, I desperately prayed God to come to me for aid. The sense of injustice (by my standards) kept me in continual misery. I cried into my pillow and called Jesus… And He — came! That time I did not understand this in its entirety, as now, but He really came, because I immediately calmed down. I imagined that He wiped away my tears. And then I imagined Him sitting on my bed holding my hand… So I fell asleep…
         … And here I was now — in the new stage of my life, the result of my passionate quests and calls! Words can describe only in very small measures what I experienced in those moments when I was in Him — and I thanked Him, again and again!…
         Vladimir left me, especially for me to be alone with Him. Tears streamed silently, almost running from my eyes. I was not able to settle down to listen to what He would like to say to me…
         I had to leave that place: I did not want to be seen crying by someone. I had to calm down quickly. Once again, wiping the tears, I sat under a tree — to relax. Then Vladimir came. He looked thoughtfully, or listening to, or formulating his ideas:
         “As you yourself have not heard, then I’ll pass what Jesus says to you.”
         I sat still.
         “It is unacceptable to ignore the experience that you are receiving now! If this happens, it will have a huge impact on your negative karma…”
         Vladimir continued:
         “Jesus and Maenuel embrace each other… They say, you should now consolidate yourself on the achieved level.”
         How can this be so? How can They have doubt in me? Do They suggest that I am capable of taking the entire happening as a game, not seriously? Maybe I have done something bad in my past lives, so God is not sure of me? Or is such the fate of every human soul, to prove one’s own devotion to God many times?
         For me, it was incomprehensible: the fact that people who were so close to God, such as Olga, suddenly were able to capture something fleeting and turn away… Then in this case it is really possible to doubt everyone…
         But the positive aspect of that warning was that I stopped wanting to cry.
         Before I finished writing down the words spoken by Jesus, Vladimir added:
         “Kayr is here. He says that ‘the mergence with cats’ should be replaced with the Mergence with God right now!”
         I already felt that I was starting to fall into a state of prostration: “Kayr! Cats? Now?! What about now? Really — right now?!”. I tried, but due to the chaos of emotions and in thoughts, nothing good, I thought, occurred.
         Vladimir smiled. I even began to think that everything, that was said, was done on purpose for me to relax. And even if They were smiling at the situation and my reaction — it was not very funny for me!
         … Little by little, the others of us began to approach. Vladimir told them too, that Jesus, Maenuel, and Kayr were here.
         I did not notice even a drop of emotions, experienced by me, in them. On the contrary, I would name the state they were in as blissful peace: peace and calm on their faces and in their gentle smiles. And there was a feeling that they were present here only with small parts of their consciousnesses. But they perceived all that was happening, both here and far beyond…

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Take the Sea on Your Palms…

        After I had rested, we once again “undertook” to my “cocoon”.
        Looking at my efforts, Vladimir said, smiling:
        “Feel your head on the ground, about two feet behind your heels, — and look out from there to the ‘cocoon’. In this way it is most easy to learn to see possible blackouts in the ‘cocoon’ — for pulling off debris and cleansing the ‘cocoon’ with the hands of the consciousness.”
        I tried to do all this. But Vladimir said:
        “Lower below your head! More below: even under the surface of the ground!”
        It was a surprise for me… I still did not fully understand, to what extent the total clairvoyance was capable! If Vladimir saw how I placed my head behind my legs, I just had only to lift my hands with the silent delight! A mixture of all my emotions reflected, apparently, very expressively on my face, because Vladimir suddenly laughed softly and kissed my cheek.
        And so, putting my head behind my heels on the ground and even lower, I walked slowly back and forth, trying to keep the head there as long as possible and to see my “cocoon” and body, which were moving above and in front of me. I did this with varying success. This was something even resembling interference on television, when the image appears and disappears. But I was not able to see any blackouts in my “cocoon”.
        We came back to the middle of the trail. Here Vladimir found a convenient place for the “falling down through” with the consciousness.
        “Let’s fall down through with the consciousness, then we take in our hands the image of a mop and start with wide circular motions — using the mop handle — to cleanse inside the middle meridian,” — Vladimir himself portrayed those circular motions with a mop. — “Also we need to make a hole in the top of the head with the handle of the mop, to cleanse the head inside of the whole energy waste, of all dark inclusions. The entire middle meridian and the whole body — must be filled with the light that is present in abundance at this place. And we must move the body during all this!”
        I began to work. With enthusiasm, I took the image of a mop in the hands of consciousness and began to scour the meridian. Firstly — within the width of the body, and then also going outside of its borders, to be sure that I cleansed it all. After this, I punched a hole in the top of head. Then turned back to circular motions by which I was cleaning and poking inside the neck and head. I really enjoyed this exercise, I well-imaged a mop and already began to feel some kind of special lightness in the body below the shoulders. And in my head there was a sensation similar to a motion of ice conglomerations which were cracking — and then were floating to the sides, freeing up the space.
        Fifteen minutes later Vladimir came up. He looked at me, smiled and said that my lower chakras have already formed the right column, but more work was needed with the head and neck.
        We headed to the sea.
        I was thinking that I was, here and now, — in a company with Vladimir, and he is teaching me! Still some months ago, it was almost a “crystal dream”. I thought then, that maybe… someday…
        Vladimir was telling something about the Mergence with God, but this time I stayed on his previous thoughts, and I woke up only when he pronounced:
        “You can merge also with me, if you are not confused by this! To merge — in my Mahadouble.”
        For me, just at that moment this became realized; that it is, indeed, possible, and that such an idea had not even occurred in my mind. It did not confuse me, and I said this to him. He smiled.
        We reached the end of the trail, after which only bushes were — and the sea was stretching as far as the eyes could see. Dark-blue sea, with white slabs of ice which reflected the sun’s rays — all was so majestic, calm, and alive!
        Vladimir explained the following meditation:
        “Take the sea on the palms, raise — and pour its transparency on our bodies, washing and purifying them!… We can wash, in this way, also our main meridians. This exercise is called ‘Washing’, we were given it, for the first time, by Eagle. It is called ‘Washing’ — because Eagle had taught us to wash, in this manner, our faces in the morning, when we lived in tents at His place of power.”
        To take the sea on my palms — it was already much easier for me. Probably I was helped by all in my meditations. Although in these moments, I forgot about this and thought that it was I myself who can do them.
        Now I was taking this soft white light, almost transparent, — and shed it in small waterfalls through the whole body.
        “It is possible also to make ‘the autopsy of the middle meridian’ — like a surgery. Let’s do this with, for example, the image of a special surgical knife or with the other suitable for this tools — and cleanse all inside.”
        The autopsy of one’s own body… I, though a medical doctor, did not do this yet. But, however crazy this sounds, the method was quite effective.
        “In particular, when we ‘dissect’ the region of head chakras, we can gently rake away all the energy densities from the chakras with hands of the consciousness.”
        While I was walking along the path, trying to imagine all the known by me and effective for this purpose surgical tools, also the course itself of the “operation”, I drew my attention to Anna, going forward. Already on the way she looked at me, I realized that she wanted to say something.
        And so it happened:
        “If you are trying yourself to do it all — that is good. But try to do the same — with the help of the Holy Spirit, asking Him to assist. It is possible, firstly, to merge with Him or Her — and then together, with united hands, to cleanse, to purify the body up to full transparency.”
        After all, it turned out that I really focused only on my own efforts. I somehow even did not think to ask Maenuel for help. There sat in my mind only the learned sport phrases, like “by only your efforts”, “everything depends on only you!”… But now it became obvious to me: I wanted to get closer to the Holy Spirit, but did not even look at Him!
        So, sheepishly and gleefully, I asked Him for help. And, indeed, there were very different effects! It was like if Maenuel Himself relieved, that at last something really significant appeared at His place of power!
        My mood rose, exercises became more vigorous! It was so nice to feel that His hands and mine were together!
        … Vladimir at this time was talking with others. He turned suddenly to me and proposed a more efficient version of the “penetration into head”. He offered to hit by the end of the stick of a mop into the foramen occipitale magnum. On hearing the familiar medical name and even remembering what it meant — I rejuvenated.
        What immediately came to mind, was unpleasant and painful memories of the practices of anatomy, where we, the students, had to work with real human corpses, studying all their muscles, blood vessels, and nerves.
        But this was in the past. But now I realized that I should hit into the lower foramen of my skull with a stick of a mop, which is in my hands of consciousness. “Soft tissue” could be “cleaned up”, as well as the spine, and I was already well aware of that hole — where I should hit!
        Others asked Vladimir to explain to them what the term meant, because it was for the first time that they heard from him these Latin words. I moved away to perform the task. Vladimir added after that he would give me fifteen minutes to work, and then would lead me to Lada: "to the court of God”. Hearing these “terrible” words about “court of God”, I slowed down a bit. But I did not sink much into those thoughts and started the piercing of that skull foramen.
        Having just started, I felt that I was already tired, but the goal was attracting me much stronger. My state was really transformed. I combined “punches” and circular motions of the mop with maximum intensity, although I had to take short breaks for rest.
        Vladimir approached and looked at me. He said that I am already better, but I need to continue to work with head and neck still more.
        “It is possible, for example, to take, with the hands of consciousness, a spray with white light fluid,” — Vladimir offered another version of the work, — “and sprinkle on the sushumna in vishudha region from behind: to dissolve all that was dark in this place. It is also possible to turn a stick into a surgical swab and cleanse with it the cavity of the head, as do the fans collecting skulls,” — he smiled.
        I did everything as he said. For greater effect, I completely penetrated into the skull and already in it, often changing the pads, cleaned out all black and grey energies. The head was a little buzzed, but the unusual easiness started to be traced. It seemed, that at least some part of my collection of energy rubbish was removed. I went to rest.*
        Vladimir at that time went slowly by the path to other side of our campfire. When he returned, he called all of us to him. There was a high-voltage line with wires that ran in two rows above us. Drawing attention to them, he said:
        “High-voltage wires are surrounded by energy fields. These fields do not cause injury, as most people think, and, vice versa, they can create interesting places of power, combined with Mahadoubles of the Holy Spirits. But really bad energy fields are created around not wires, but transformers.”
        He proposed to feel changes in the energy field under the wires at the interval of about 20 meters. We found 4 different states there. The most interesting for me segment was where self-awareness in the body disappeared completely. It was more pleasing to be at this point than at other places. And also it was very easy to flow by the consciousness.
        Vladimir commented:
        “Every incarnate man gets accustomed to living, perceiving and feeling only the material world. Usually it is not necessary to perceive energy fields, so man does not develop this capability. But on the spiritual Path — this must be learned: for man to become closer to the Creator, it is the only possibility — to change him/herself by the quality of the soul. But it cannot be done with any certain gestures or by similar actions. A layer of matter in the ‘multi-layer cake’ of the multidimensional space — is very small in size — in comparison with the whole ‘pie’ of the Absolute. Therefore the process of practical searching of God implies cognizing and mastering all layers of multi-dimensional space, focusing on the most refined, most subtle layers. Remember: God — in the Aspect of the Primordial Consciousness (the Creator, God-the-Father) — is exactly the subtlest of all that exists in the universe. Therefore such trainings, like those with energy fields around the wires with currents, are very useful on the first stages of the Path.”

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*   Editor’s note: after all exercises with chakras and meridians, it is important to perform shavasana.

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What Is This: Are You in a Bra Today?

        The sun became warmer every day. At last, I could exist without a hat and in an unbuttoned jacket. It is true, however, that I was “told” to do this; if not, I would continue to be dressed like a “cabbage”. For me, in fact, — the hotter the better.
        Vladimir, at that same time, had already taken off his jacket.
        He invited me to join to all the others in order “to get the great knightion” into mantras “Purr!” and “Miau!”* . We laughed and stood in a circle.
        Looking at me, Vladimir immediately told me to take off my jersey… Jacket — too.
        I went to my backpack to put in it the removed clothing. Then I came back. I still had on my body two shirts and two sweaters, put one on top of another. He again looked at me critically.
        “I hope you don’t have synthetics in your clothing?” — And after a pause: — “What is this: are you in a bra today?”
        Anna and Larisa, it seemed, were more surprised than I was.
        “But it is not synthetic! And it does not hinder!” — I made excuses.
        Anna and Larisa embarrassingly tried to apologize also: “We did not notice! We did not even think about it! What is the reason of her to have it?”
        “Take it off!” — they laughed. — “God loves naked women!”
        Vladimir smiled looking at me.
        “Nothing should put obstacles in the way of the expansion of the spiritual heart! There should be no hindering clothing!”
        “But what about ‘public demand’”? — I noticed.
        “It is — a completely unnecessary ‘requirement’. The same — with synthetic tights and shoes with high-heels! How many women have spoiled their health because of these ‘demands of society’!”
        Turning away and a little embarrassed, taking off my bra, I remembered about my permanent ten-centimeter high-heel shoes, in which I ran in previous years to a disco after a long working day… What a suffering it was!…
        “The spiritual heart must pour freely from the chest: nothing should stand in its way! Do you feel how you are now expanded with the consciousness, how it becomes easier to breathe?”
        Yes, indeed, it became free! Involuntarily I stood up, straightened my shoulders.
        … The sunlight gently flooded the meadow with its warmth.
        With cheerful enthusiasm, they began to make for me “the great initiation”.
        “Let’s concentrate with the consciousness in the top chakra sahasrara. And then go down quickly through the front meridian — to the muladhara chakra — and without stopping the motion, go immediately through the sushumna meridian up to the top chakra. Then — back along the same trajectory. During each such cycle — we pronounce aloud, but feel the sound in the meridians: ‘Miau! Miau! Miau!’. Make the accent on ‘a’.”
        Vladimir showed the exercise, helping in the advancement of the energy with the movements of his body.
        “This is — a great way to cleanse quickly the front and back meridians. It prepares one for the mastering the ’microcosmic orbit’. We must, of course, repeat these ‘miau!’ many-many times.”
        I asked:
        “But why the ‘Miau!’?”
        “Well, you may try to do the same with ‘Bow-wow!’”
        We laughed. Yes, with a “Bow-wow!” it would be, to say the least of it, more complicated.
        Then we started the work with the mantra “Purr!”
        “Let’s concentrate with the consciousnesses in the muladhara and svadhisthana chakras. Then lift the energy of the consciousness through the front meridian, feeling ourselves like a blissful cat that had just warmed up to a radiator and now is stretching in bliss.” — And he showed stretching with pleasure and with “purring” while stressing and prolonging the sound “r”.
        After verifying the correctness of my execution, Vladimir left me to continue “purring”. Anna added that it is possible to share with others this blissful joy. And — also to use this mantra for becoming free from tiredness.
        This mantra really caused a sensation of sweet awakening after a good sleep, my eyes even narrowed with pleasure. So, we were walking through the meadow and were “purring”.
        I sat on the grass to rest and to write down in my notebook about the mantras. When I finished recording, Vladimir came up, having decided to continue the theme of wardrobe accessories:
        “Clothes, if possible, should be comfortable — to the extent that it is not felt by the body. Because of this, we can feel God better.”
        “I don’t like it when people stare at me!” — I barked out.
        Vladimir replied very simply:
        “Beauty must be presented! This is one of the possible manifestations of the love which is expected by God from people. Beauty — refines us, fills us by the refined power! Beauty, as is known, has to saturate and save — by this — the world!
        “But, of course, as everywhere and always, this must be used with caution. Moreover, one must learn circumspection! It would be, for example, wrong to put yourself in danger, seducing primitives with your beauty.”
        I did not know about my personal beauty, but what Vladimir referred to about one of my favorite writers — Dostoevsky, forced me to keep silent and to think. Then I remembered another popular expression, but from Chekhov: “The man should be beautiful in everything: with the face and clothes, soul and mind!”.
        So I thought that: if God allows us to go as openly, then — let us take away the long skirts and covering sweaters!
        But here, Vladimir said:
        “But, I repeat: do not behave like a hooligan! And — demonstrate the beauty of a body to the representatives of the tamas guna!”
        Then he continued:
        “But I, starting this conversation, did not mean the erotic subject, although it is — also very important and good; it was already discussed by us. But I would like to emphasize that for successful improvement through the meditation practices, it is very important to feel free. There should be no concern of unfinished business, alarm. There should not be feelings of ‘being crushed’ by someone, also remembering that ‘they do not respect me’, ‘I was misunderstood’, ‘I am victimized’, and so on.
        “By the way, to get rid of these states, one has to master the art of psychic self-regulation .
        “And it is also difficult to achieve a sense of freedom ‘in the 4 walls’ of city apartments and offices — as opposed to natural open spaces, where we, as you can see, have developed ourselves and help you now.
        “The same — about tight clothes which are harmful for blood circulation, hindering movements, also interfering in the normal functioning of the chakras. Best of all, so that you will feel yourself, it is better to meditate without any clothing. Of course — taking in consideration the weather and different social factors, which were already mentioned by us.
        “On the spiritual Path, a spiritual warrior must seek the ways to cleanse, to wipe, to dissolve all covers around the soul — then to gradually, completely ‘dissolve’ it, moving to the Mergence with God. The clothes may be one of such covers — including even its symbolic consideration.
        “But I stress again that we must avoid here, as in everything else, ‘excesses’. You, for example, see that we all are working now in clothes.”

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*   It is the Russian pronunciation of the English “Meow!”. One needs to use “the version of Russian cats”.

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